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Thursday, March 30, 2006

-???WHYs???

why the things that i think is important doesnt apply so to him?
why at times he is soo nice and caring but at times he is not?
why i must think in his shoes always?
why he cant think in mine just for once?
why maintaining a relationship is sooo difficult?
why understanding each other is so hard?
why sometimes i think that he dont care but others dont think so?
why is he so hard to fathom?
why i cant seem to catch up with his thinking?
why i still grumble even though i know and understand his busy schedule?
why i cant stop myself from being impulsive and say things that never go through my brain?
why do i feel so sad and disappointed when he dont have the time to listen to what i want to say becuz he was busy?
why i miss him and want to talk to him but he just wont have the time to listen?
why he rarely say things that girls like to hear?
why i am soo xin ku inside but i just dont wish to tell him?
why is loving someone so difficult?
why do we have to fall in love?
why do we love even though we know is hurting and hard?
why he dont seem to give a damm about me when i really miss him alot alot but didnt get the chance to tell him?
why is he so 'wood' sometimes?
why even though he is so 'wood', i still love him so much?
why i rather bear and keep everything inside me instead of telling him?
why so many people ask me to think in his shoes but no one think in mine?
why sometimes i get the feeling that he think for himself only?
why are people selfish at times?
why do people think so much?
why he can just say i am tired and ignore me like that?
why i feel like shouting out loud, hitting people, biting people but i dont have the energy to do so?
why i feeel like banging my head on the wall?
why i am always the one who think more in depth than him?
why am i more emotional than him?
why i will cry when i nearly lose him?
why cant he just be sweet for this time?
why i will feel that he is oblivious to my presence at times?
why my mood will get so down when he talks in such a bo chap tone?

why why why?
why why why?

i really wish feel to find out all the WHYS.

but i guess it all binds down to the fact that
izzit he is too insensitive or izzit i am the one who cares too much and being tooo sensitive?
think mostly is my part ba..just think on the bright side than mayb wont feel so xin ku inside le. but its sosoooooooooo h-a-r-d. . . .i just care too much that my mood is sooo damm the down now. sososoo sadded =(

soMickey-ish' ; 11:20 PM ; Comment it!