why the things that i think is important doesnt apply so to him?
why at times he is soo nice and caring but at times he is not?
why i must think in his shoes always?
why he cant think in mine just for once?
why maintaining a relationship is sooo difficult?
why understanding each other is so hard?
why sometimes i think that he dont care but others dont think so?
why is he so hard to fathom?
why i cant seem to catch up with his thinking?
why i still grumble even though i know and understand his busy schedule?
why i cant stop myself from being impulsive and say things that never go through my brain?
why do i feel so sad and disappointed when he dont have the time to listen to what i want to say becuz he was busy?
why i miss him and want to talk to him but he just wont have the time to listen?
why he rarely say things that girls like to hear?
why i am soo xin ku inside but i just dont wish to tell him?
why is loving someone so difficult?
why do we have to fall in love?
why do we love even though we know is hurting and hard?
why he dont seem to give a damm about me when i really miss him alot alot but didnt get the chance to tell him?
why is he so 'wood' sometimes?
why even though he is so 'wood', i still love him so much?
why i rather bear and keep everything inside me instead of telling him?
why so many people ask me to think in his shoes but no one think in mine?
why sometimes i get the feeling that he think for himself only?
why are people selfish at times?
why do people think so much?
why he can just say i am tired and ignore me like that?
why i feel like shouting out loud, hitting people, biting people but i dont have the energy to do so?
why i feeel like banging my head on the wall?
why i am always the one who think more in depth than him?
why am i more emotional than him?
why i will cry when i nearly lose him?
why cant he just be sweet for this time?
why i will feel that he is oblivious to my presence at times?
why my mood will get so down when he talks in such a bo chap tone?
why why why?
why why why?
i really wish feel to find out all the WHYS.
but i guess it all binds down to the fact that
izzit he is too insensitive or izzit i am the one who cares too much and being tooo sensitive?
think mostly is my part ba..just think on the bright side than mayb wont feel so xin ku inside le. but its sosoooooooooo h-a-r-d. . . .i just care too much that my mood is sooo damm the down now. sososoo sadded =(
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meet dearr jia ard 5 to go town and shopp. but think both of us are too tired to look around.. didnt saw anything that fancy us and walked around aimlessly. hahas. went to suntec just for the yami yogurt that both of us wana eat. hehee. abit toot la.. but what to do.. we liked the yogurt! yum yum!
after that meet dear.. his friend's bday so acc him to go meet them at partyworld chinatown. HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU! haha. his friends are interesting and funny people. at first seem awkward with them but after an hour or so..will warm up and talk. hhaha. his friends have good voices and can sing very well. ehee. i ate cake at midnight lo..so fattenning but the cake is so nice la.. so worth it. at the most climb stairs few more times lo. ;p
dear send me go take cab..didnt send me home. have to learn to take things in stride and think in others shoes. cannot always be so demanding. luckily take cab if not i dun wana go home alone lo. haha. really treasure the times spent with him.. becuz i dont always get to spend time with him.
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after work took a cab with ken, eugene and roger to harbour front for MTI Getaway Cruise. the name of the cruise is Falcon Princess. haha. weird name . .
the sea was choppy and thus making the ship rocks.. cant stand properly. the ship just went ard and shop at Kusu island for quite awhile..more stable there. we had buffet dinner, lucky draws and games.
afterall games was the most enjoyable and fun. . hahas. imagine you get to see scenes that maybe you cant get to see in your whole life. heheh. so when i had to participate in one of the game that need us to pretend we are in a rock band and wear those weird weird clothes n accessories. i just heck care and played.. haha. forget who i am. just enjoyed. anyway i wont get to see them again..after my ipp. manage to pull my score up to the 2nd place and got a hamper. haha.
i dont mind working at MTI after i graduate. the people there are so fun and easy-going. especially my supervisor, heather tan..wendy goh..gary kaw. there are really great people! haha. always encourage me and wont suan me or whatsoever. hehe. love them.
went to cine..my fav hangout place and eat some food. didnt eat much on board. more of talking and playing to enjoy the food. hhaa. saw dear there working. can see he is so tired but have to hang in there. heartpain. but no choice..that's his work ma. at least can get to see him is already very good le. dont expect much from him also. i wont grumble to him and add on to his burdens. i will only grumble to my frens so they have to suffer le. hehe. i dont want him to feel stress with me and think that i am so unreasonable.
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Jie, you're fit to commit because you know what you want
You don't need us to tell you that you're on the right track. A cool and confident person, you know what you want; now it's just a matter of finding it. Even more important, you know that love is about much more than what kind of clothes they wear or car they drive. And you're ready to make it work.You've gotten to a place where you are happy with your life, and you're ready to share it with someone special. So whether you've found them or are still looking, know that this time, you'll get what you want.
http://web.tickle.com/tests/fittocommitnew/?test=fittocommitnewogt
i am seriously bored in the office so keep doing quizzes and post them online. . haha. so for those that are as bored as i am. just go do and waste some time. *wink*
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went to bugis with dearr yest.. i was late cuz i keep thinking i will be meeting her at city hall. haha. blurr me.
both of us dont feel like eating so she bought 2 crispy pancakes and i bought a cup of corn for dinner. hahaas. dont think we are jian fei-ing kaes..becuz they are considered oily stuff also. ;p
walk around bugis but nothing caught our eyes.. dont why. nowadays shuai ge dont know hide where le. like all ren jian zhen fa le. haha. abit sians la..since no shuai ge to see. opps!
went to parco and dearr was like siao char bo.. crazy woman. next time bring her out must be careful ar. lol. took neoprints with her and i like that machine alot. cuz all the pics look so nice. haha. in the end both of us bought a pouch each and nothing more le. hehe.first time! nvm..we will cont on sat..in town. wahaha.
which one do u like the most? leave a comment . . =)
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Jie, you're a Steady Supporter http://web.tickle.com/tests/girlfriend/?test=girlfriendogt the quiz is true to some extent ba..
Stand by your man — that's just something you naturally do. Once you've committed to a relationship, you are a constant companion who enjoys the comfort and stability that comes from being a couple. Not quick to judge, accuse, or think the worst, you have a lot of trust (in him and in yourself), and you rarely worry about where he is or who he's with.For you, mutual respect is of utmost importance. You are comfortable and confident in your own skin, making you a great pillar of strength in all your relationships. Whether he's striving to climb a mountain or land a promotion, you have his back. Best part is, you know he's got yours too.
i will accuse my bf without thinking through my brain and regret what i say later on. perhaps that's me ba.. hehe.
pillar of strength? i am not too sure. haha. must ask him next time le. :)
^no matter how unhappy i am.. i also wont say it out or grumble to u le. i know u need to work and need ur rest but sometimes i also need ur attention. but i will try to tell myself to understand and think in ur shoes. i dont want you to think that i am unhappy with u and make a decision i dont want to accept again. so i rather keep quiet and say nothing. . .^
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sick for 2 days le.. hate to be sick. whole body no energy and had to eat medicine. i hate eating medicine.. bitter and most importantly is pills! yucks!
but i had a good time with dear yest. hheehe. love spending quality time with him and having him by my side. through what happen. . i have learnt to treasure him more and more le. haha. wont do things that he doesnt like and would cause him to be unhappy.
-->i will kick away that stupid habit of mine if not i will lose you.. i know that. i wont let you encounter the problem the 2nd time liao. i really hope everything will turn out well and we wont be squabbling so much becuz of the unnecessary stuff kaes. dont always think that you dont have time for me. as long as you have time for me is enuff le. thnks for being so doting and caring towards me. love you lots.
*thnks to dearr for accompanying me with your smses.. and your comforting words that helped me so much. you are really my love consultant. =) muacks
had been sleeping the whole day today.. no energy to get out of bed and whole body was so hot. dear had to work so no time to accompany me but he show his concern through smses. as long as i can feel his concern..i am contented le. hehe. talk online awhile before i feeel sleepy again. haha. pig rite.. but no choice. i was so tired.. from work and stuff. till now my voice hadnt change back yet and i am still having my flu. sadd sadd
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20/03
sitting at my desk infront of the com blogging. whole day no mood.. just keep sneezing and coughing. throat so pain. . mayb becuz i ate kfc for lunch. haha. surely want to scold me for eating kfc even though i am sick rite? i had the urge to eat cheese fries ma..so ask med n justice bao to eat kfc lo. hhaha.
now feeling so lethargic..feel like cutting my nose off. so itchy. keep sneezing. arghhhhhhhhhh!!!!!
19/03
met up with jac and tong. met jac ard 4.40pm at amk station becuz i was damm tired. went to walk ard at heeren and i bought a necklace and bracelet. haha. fast?
after that went to our fav hangout place and had dinner there. dont know why dont feel like seeing him all of a sudden and was feeling moody. but after awhile i am alright le.
tong went to settle some stuff after dinner while jac and i went to amk and play pool. last week just played with dear so skills still there la..abit of it. jac didnt perform her standards..becuz she didnt play for soo long le.
18/03
had dinner at marina square pizza hut with dearies ee gong clan. have been so long since we last met up. the whole bunch of us were talking and laughing so loudly that other people keep looking at us. hahas. its really fun hanging out together.
caught dorm with dearr and hong. overall the movie is NOT a horror movie but more of a touching movie. its not those scary movie where the ghost suddenly pop out and scare people.
so for those who wana watch this movie but dont dare... you can go and catch it becuz the storylines are pretty good =)
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Your Life Analysis: Mind: Your mind rating is a score of your mind's clarity, ability, and health. Higher scores indicate an advancement in knowledge, clear and capable thinking, high mental health, and pure thought free of interference. Your mind score is not bad, but could be improved upon. Your mental health is not weak, but you are not achieving full mental clarity and function. Learn how to unclutter your mind. Keep learning, keep improving, continue moving forward. Read advice from other quiz-takers on improving the mind. Body: Your body rating measures your body's health, fitness, and general wellness. A healthy body contributes to a happy life, however many of us are lacking in this area. You have a rather good body score, which is an indication that you take care of yourself. There is room for improvement, however. Please keep doing what works. Eat right, exercise, reduce your stress, treat any illness. Doing these things will help ensure your body will be in good working order for a long time to come. Read advice from other quiz-takers on improving the body. Spirit: Your spirit rating seeks to capture in a number that elusive quality which is found in your faith, your attitude, and your philosophy on life. A higher score indicates a greater sense of inner peace and balance. Your spirit score leaves room for improvement. Consider making a concerted effort to redefine your attitudes and focus your beliefs. Boosting your spirit will lead to greater life satisfaction. Read advice from other quiz-takers on improving the spirit. Friends/Family: Your friends and family rating measures your relationships with those around you, and is based on how large, healthy, and dependable your social network is. Your friends and family score suffers, yet it does not need to be this way. Strengthen your social network by reaffirming old bonds. Seek out new friendships, and they will provide you the reward you need. Try using MeetUp.com to find people near you who share your interests. Love: Your love rating is a measure of your current romantic situation. Sharing your heart with another person is one of life's most glorious, terrifying, rewarding experiences. Your love score is in good shape, meaning that things are going well. Do all you can to maintain it, and continue to grow and move ahead. Read advice from other quiz-takers on finding and maintaining love. Finance: Your finance rating is a score that rates your current financial health and stability. Your finances are somewhat in the middle, neither bad or exceptional. Keep doing what works for you, and improve what doesn't. Focus on long-term financial stability as your goal. Read advice from other quiz-takers on improving your finances. This Is My Life, Rated Life: 
6.5Mind: 
6.4Body: 
7.5Spirit: 
5.2Friends/Family: 4.7Love: 6.9Finance: 5.5Take the Rate My Life Quiz
Life: Your life rating is a score of the sum total of your life, and accounts for how satisfied, successful, balanced, capable, valuable, and happy you are. The quiz attempts to put a number on the summation of all of these things, based on your answers. Your life score leaves room for improvement. You can make changes to improve your trouble areas, and this will bring you greater satisfaction. Focus on your weakest points and set about to change them. Do not delay your happiness and success. (Read more on improving your life)
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Dating Strengths Dating Weaknesses 1. Friendliness - 75%
2. Financial Situation - 69.2%
3. Open-Mindedness - 63.6%
4. Flirtiness - 62.5%
5. Optimism - 57.1%1. Selfishness - 63.6%
2. Vanity - 50%Dating Strengths Explained Friendliness - Your friendliness makes you approachable and fun to be around. A wide circle of friends also works to your advantage on the dating scene.
Financial Situation - You've got your financial situation under control, which is a very desirable quality. Be careful to avoid guys who are only interested in your money.
Open-Mindedness - You are open to trying new things and entertaining new ideas, and this widens your pool of available guys.
Flirtiness - Flirting is a good way to break the ice, and you are a pro at it. Being flirtatious will open up many dating opportunities.
Optimism - People are drawn to your positive outlook. Your optimism attracts others to you.Dating Weaknesses Explained Selfishness - You think too much of yourself and your needs. You must learn to put your partner first and tend to his needs.
Vanity - Learn to put a lower priority on looks. Appearance is, of course, important, but vanity is undesireable. The only people you will attract are the superficial.Take the Dating Diversions Latest Online Dating Quiz
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Greed: Medium Gluttony: Medium Wrath: Medium Sloth: Medium Envy: Medium Lust: Low Pride: Medium
Take the Seven Deadly Sins Quiz
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Ipp is left with 6 weeks.. hope time passes fast.
frankly speaking.. my supervisor is very nice to me. i dont feel like leaving this co but doing the same task over and over again is also boring and i miss my dearies soo much. well.. tian xia mei you bu san de yan xi. ;]
10/03
mit dearr after work to catch Date Movie. haha. the show was hilarious (abit over-dramatic) but the duration is abit too short. its a nice show to watch after work. can relax and de-stress. hehe. you will keep laughing from the start to the end. haha. we had our dinner at yoshinoya before the start of the movie. 2 person sitting at a table for 4-6 pax. so idiot lo. hahaaha. all becuz of someone thinking! lol. hehee.
after movie.. i was hungry and we went to galilee to eat .hahaa.eat such sinful food at such late hours but i dont care. i was damm de hungry kaes! oks..i admit is to go see dear and my stupid mouth is itchy for food!! aiyo! make me say out the truth. lol. dearr so nice..pei me eat till 11 plus den we go home. haha.
11/03
dearr and i decide to go marina square and suntec instead of parkway parade which is so far from my house and hers. haha.
but. . .
going marina square and suntec is a wrong decision made by us!
marina square is so packed with people.. due to the opening of Creative shop and the publicity. saw celebs there and i has no mood to shop. see so many people..my mind is not moving. just feel like closing my eyes. haha. but i managed to buy a top. hehe.
suntec is also cramped with people.. becuz of the IT Fair held there. nothing much to shop at suntec and i need to rush off to meet my cousin for dinner at my gran place le.
its been a long time since i went my gran place and eat so went back to eat and she is soo happy. haha. i am happy too. hehe. i miss her cooking. suppose to meet dear for movie after my dinner but he was sick so i went to watch with my cousin only. reached home around 2+ am. had girls talk with my cousin. slept at 4+ am. *grins*
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Your Career Type: Social 
You are helpful, friendly, and trustworthy.
Your talents lie in teaching, nursing, giving information, and solving social problems.
You would make an excellent:
Counselor - Dental Hygienist - Librarian
Nurse - Parole Officer - Personal Trainer
Physical Therapist - Social Worker - Teacher
The worst career options for your are realistic careers, like truck driver or farmer.
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***The Keys to Your Heart***
You are attracted to those who have a split personality - cold as ice on the outside but hot as fire in the heart.
In love, you feel the most alive when your lover is creative and never lets you feel bored.
You'd like to your lover to think you are loyal and faithful... that you'll never change.
You would be forced to break up with someone who was emotional, moody, and difficult to please.
Your ideal relationship is comforting. You crave a relationship where you always feel warmth and love.
Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.
You think of marriage pessimistically. You don't think happy marriages exist anymore.
In this moment, you think of love as something you thirst for. You'll do anything for love, but you won't fall for it easily.
http://www.blogthings.com/keystoyourheartquiz/
***Your Five Variable Love Profile***
Propensity for Monogamy:
Your propensity for monogamy is medium.In general, you prefer to have only one love interest.But it's hard for you to stay devoted for too long!There's too much eye candy to keep you from wandering.
Experience Level:
Your experience level is high.You've loved, lost, and loved again.You have had a wide range of love experiences.And when the real thing comes along, you know it!
Dominance:
Your dominance is medium.You tend to be the one with more power.You aren't a total control freak in relationships..But of course you don't mind getting you way!
Cynicism:
Your cynicism is low.You are an eternal optimist when it comes to love and romance.No matter how many times you've been hurt - you're never bitter.You believe in one true love, your perfect soulmate.And if you haven't found true love yet, you know you will soon.
Independence:
Your independence is high.You don't need to be in love, and sometimes you don't even want love.Having your own life is very important for you...Even more important than having a relationship.
http://www.blogthings.com/thefivevariablelovetest/
***You Are Internal - Believer - Powerful***
You feel your life is controlled internally.If you want something, you make it happen.You don't wait around for things to go your way.You value your independence and don't like others to have control.
You are a true believer in luck, fate, and karma.You believe that life is a game of chance - not a game of skill.You either consider yourself very unlucky or very lucky.No matter what, you don't feel like you can change the hand you were dealt.
When it comes to who's in charge, it's you.Life is a kingdom, and you're the grand ruler.You don't care much about what others think.But they better care what you think!
http://www.blogthings.com/thethreedimensionluckandpowertest/
***You Are 24 Years Old***
Under 12: You are a kid at heart. You still have an optimistic life view - and you look at the world with awe.
13-19: You are a teenager at heart. You question authority and are still trying to find your place in this world.
20-29: You are a twentysomething at heart. You feel excited about what's to come... love, work, and new experiences.
30-39: You are a thirtysomething at heart. You've had a taste of success and true love, but you want more!
40+: You are a mature adult. You've been through most of the ups and downs of life already. Now you get to sit back and relax.
http://www.blogthings.com/whatagequiz/
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***You're an Passionate Kisser***
For you, kissing is about all about following your urgesIf someone's hot, you'll go in for the kiss - end of storyYou can keep any relationship hot with your steamy kissesA total spark plug - your kisses are bound to get you in trouble
http://www.blogthings.com/whatkindofkisserareyouquiz/
--> so bored so decide to this quiz linked from ker's blog. hhaha. TRY it out and see the results. might be in for a SHOCK! ;p
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in the office now trying to create motd for E.D but i have no mood for any work.
just exactly what does my heart wants? i also have no answer for that. . i am so frustratedd. feel like opening it up and ask what do you want ? dont torture me anymore! arghhhh
nothing much to update this few days or even 1 week. life is so mundane..work, go out, go home. same routine over n over again for 11 weeks. meeting my dear, ee gong clan and my darlings are what i look forward the most every week. they are my source of motivation in work n every aspect. love you all to the tiniest bits!! ^muacks^
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Well..
if you think that i have done all this to make you hate me then sad to say, YOU are wrong!
i have said all that is becuz i want to get my message across CLEARLY and really do what friends do..nothing beyond that.
btw, getting your no from you doesnt mean i start the ball rolling. i hav made it very straight to you that we are not possible to get together. i told you in sms, on phone. but you doesnt seem to get it in your head.
i dont care whether you said to others that i am leading you on or what so ever. i know in my heart that i am not can le. all i have to do is to able to answer to my friends and most importantly..myself.
last but not least, if you really choose to hate me, then its your choice, your decision. i have absolutely no say in it.
anyway now i realise that its very very true when people always says actions speaks louder than words!
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01/03
meet up with darling tong for dinner and shop for my bag. hee. i was late but luckily she have jeanie to accompany her and so she wont be so bored. haha. if not i will get blast liao. thnks jeanie :)
we send jeanie to scotts food court then we walked to far east. saw a bag i liked there and was pondering whether should i buy or not. we decided to walk around first becuz i dont wana buy the bag then saw another that i liked. must kick the habit of being so spendthrift so cannot see, like then buy. mitsju is having a sale! 10%-50%. so tempting. tong bought a pair of shoes there.. i also wana buy but too bad. no money le. hehe.
settle our dinner at far east.. its only now then i know that there are nice food at far eat and its affordable too. hahaha. acutally dont wana eat dinner de but since i have promise HIM so no choice have to eat. dont wana make HIM worry also. so good hor? lol.
i went back to get my bag and we went to cine level 9 to take pics but the results wasnt satisfying so tong wana go heeren and take again. by the time we finish taking pics, its almost 10pm. headed home cuz i was tired. didnt meet HIM..he went to a concert with his boss. must let him have time with his friends also.
its a lesson that i learnt..a very valuable lesson.
03/03
now in the office doing nothing so blog lo. haha. really nothing for me to do le. have been slacking from morning till now. feel like sleeping..everyday must go through this period becuz i just had my lunch.
bought alot of fruits into the office. purpose is to keep myself awake for the remaining 4 hrs left. haha. didnt buy sweets becuz they contain sugar and its Fattening! ahhaha. so buy fruits instead..can help in digestion ma. good for the stomach. hehe.
looking forward to meet dear later.. guess going out after work will always brighten up my day! *grins*
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27/02
had gastric flu and went to see a doctor. think i have eaten too much oily food during the weekend and got myself into this. next time cannot be so greedy le. had 1 day mc from the doctor and rest more. most important is that i cant eat oily and fried food..also cant drink milk and cold drinks. sob sob. its so miserable if i am not able to eat all that. so no appetite for dinner..only want to sleep sleep sleep.
he didnt visit me he want me to rest and sleep. but he changed his off day to tommorow instead of wednesday. hhehe. so that he can acc me.
28/02
cant wake up this morning and send an sms to my supervisor telling her i will reach 30mins later. she replied saying no prob. but i was late for 1hr..reached at 9.30am..due to the traffic jam. why singapore have so many cars? jammed up the whole expressway!
must be wondering why i weant to work even though i had mc rite? haha. all becuz the deadlines for my work are on tues so i have to complete and sent to them before i had a good rest.
met him after my lunch with dearie med. went to bugis to look for her and had my lunch with her since he cant make it at 12pm to meet me. med and i went to sim lim food court to eat and i could only eat porridge. so sians..but no choice. who ask me to get myself sick. hai.
he brought me to shaw house ans we watched the fog. haha. a nice show. worth watching.. heard that its a story re-made. after the show.. we went to food court eat again and i got to eat my sea cocomut! yum yum! actually i cant eat that but he dote on me ma..so too bad ;p he sent me home after that and met his friends. hehe. but he brought dinner for me after having his dinner. its frog leg porridge! he even bought 2 masks for me as he knew i lacked of sleep recently. i rushed my work and eat my porridge at the same time. :]
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